I just put you in my brand new friends' list (thank you for the code!) and when picking a color for your background, I thought, hmm, this ocean blue feels right to me --- then I read this journal entry. "...never at home except in the ocean, never sure what ocean I was seeking...." You are part of the ocean I am floating in, thank you thank you thank you. And thank you for your insights on mothering when you don't know what your children need --- it gives me much to think about, for my own mother as well as my daughters.